I feel like a zombie

Say hello to me and my zombie face! WOO HOO

I’m a bit sad about the summer (summer semester, more like) coming to an end. I’m about two (?) weeks away from the end of my summer semester and I kinda feel like everything’s been moving waaay too fast! Math is just….hell. I’m super tired from all the schoolwork (7:30 am class EVERYDAY) but I don’t want the sem to end yet

I have no idea what I’m even talking about anymore. I’m kinda sleep-deprived! I hope everything’s gonna be worth it! (And I got myself a reward today! Went to the Forever 21 Sale at Megamall earlier today HEEEEEEEEE!!!)

xxxxx

Summer Semester!

Hey! So today I checked out my aisis account (it’s this thing we use for school stuff) and I’m officially enrolled for the summer semester! I’m going to be taking up Math 20.3 (Calculus), Psychology 101 and Bahasa Indonesian! Kinda disappointed though, I was really hoping I could take French or German but I ran out of slots (when we enlist for classes we have a batching system. I was in the 7th batch…out of 8 batches). Still super excited!! Wish me luck xx

What is Happening?

Since my last blog post, I think I have gotten even worse. I seriously do not know what to do. My mother..keeps on hurling insult after insult to my face. I honestly don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about this anymore. Why can’t she say something nice? All my life I’ve tried to please her and nothing is ever enough. Why is she doing this to me? I feel like our relationship is deteriorating with each passing day. I love my mom and I know she loves me too but it hurts so much when she makes me feel so worthless. Maybe I really am.

Tough Times

I haven’t updated in ages. Again. I’ve been too busy with school but now that the school year (and my first year in college) has ended, I’m really gonna try to get myself to write some more. I think writing is the perfect outlet for my emotions.

So far, this year hasn’t been very nice for me. The school year might have already ended but I feel a bit like my whole life is in shambles. I’m so lost, I’m so confused. I need a hug so bad right now. I’m turning eighteen in a few short months and I’ve been getting scoldings from my mom for still being indecisive. It’s hard to make decisions when you know what you want isn’t exactly what your parents have planned out for you. Sometimes, I just want to escape from all this…mayhem. I don’t know how much more I can take.

 

xx

Hello World

……it has been ages since I last updated. I just can’t seem to stick to my resolutions. I really, really hope this time I can. I feel like I actually need to blog. I need to vent and this blog is pretty much the only place I can do that in peace. So, hello again, blogosphere! You have been sorely missed.

 

xx M

 

Hell Week? Hell Month?

 I haven’t updated in ages! There goes my resolution to blog as often as possible. Oh well.

I’ve been going nuts because of school and personal matters. I’m really hoping that I’ll get through everything, especially since the semester is going to end soon and I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything. At all. I’m starting to feel like a failure. Wish me luck, I’ve got loads to do.

Anyway, I’m just going to photo-dump right now! Here are a few random pictures from the past two weeks!

I was with my mom at one of her high school friends’ house

I met this little guy there! Camwhored the afternoon away!

Photobooth with my blockmates!

Was at Podium last night, got myself these pretty babies <3

My date for this weekend. I absolutely have to finish reading this novel for my literature class already!

That is it for now,  I’ve got tons of things to do!

Sleep-deprived

This week has been pretty stressful for me. I’ve been feeling super tired these past few days, I am so sleep deprived. I haven’t been getting enough sleep and I just feel like no matter how hard I try…I don’t get results. I really don’t know what I should do anymore.  Because of all the craziness, I just felt like I had to indulge myself. I’m  not sure if I even deserve to reward myself, but I really just needed  break from everything! So…

Had my nails done! I’ve never had orange nails, but my friend and I were texting while I was at the nail salon and she  kept on telling me to have my nails painted orange!

I decided to treat myself. I had free time one afternoon, I was super bored and in need of serious quality alone time!

Milk tea from Moonleaf  just a couple of hours ago! Some of my friends and I went to UP Diliman for this thing (I really can’t remember what it’s called) but we wound up eating random stuff! Yummy!

I apologize for the quality of the photos, I just took them with my phone hihi

That’s it for now! I’m sorry for boring you guys with the details of my uneventful life! Wish me luck, I’ve got another long test this week and I’m really hoping to do better! How’s everyone’s weekend going?

xo Mikki